AgapeLady’s Blog

March 25, 2010

You are SOOOOO loved!

As I was driving home yesterday, just enjoying the sunshine and the beginning of Spring weather, a song came on my Christian radio station – Natalie Grant’s “Held.” Although the song always touches my heart, it seemed to draw me in even more than usual. As I listened to its words, my heart began to ache and the tears welled within my eyes. “This is what it means to be held, how it feels when the sacred is torn from your life, and you survive.” Just repeating those words makes my heart break. And the chorus continues… “This is what it is to be loved. And to know that the promise was when everything fell, we’d be held.”

Oh, dear ones, this song tells the tale of such deep loss and sorrow. I think the first time I heard it was after 9/11… when so many of us felt our hearts would break, when so many of us yearned to reach out in some small way to the many who were hurting, to the many who felt the loss of lives on that horrible day.

Do you know the LOVE that holds you tightly and offers comfort even midst such a difficult time? Have you ever felt the arms of the Almighty holding you close as you sobbed over some loss that seemed simply unbearable? And indeed it was – if not for His power to hold you up.

I have. And I have to tell you that there is nothing – absolutely NOTHING – like that dear, sweet love. When all else fails, when all else is gone, it’s that unconditional love – God’s sweet agape – that makes the difference, that somehow – I don’t understand it – holds us together when our world is falling apart. Nothing, dear ones, NOTHING can separate us from that love (Romans 8:37-39). Nothing, that is, but ourselves.

My heart aches to think of those who have lost sight of that love – whether because they have never had the opportunity to know it or because they have been so hurt by the traumas of this world that they have been blinded – or whether they simply overlook, put off, or disregard the gift. For that is what it is. It’s God’s GIFT to us in the form of His Son. John 3:16 tells us that God sent His one and only Son to bear our sin so that we would not be forever lost… forever separated from that love – not because He wants it that way, but because we don’t accept His gift, His sacrifice!

There was a time when I did not understand that love. When I could not comprehend a God who could somehow condemn some to an eternity in hell. I still don’t comprehend it all. But this I know: God has created us to love Him. There have been times that I wished I had no free will – because I fail so frequently – but… He has also gifted us with the ability to choose. And the thing is, dear friends – LOVE HAS TO BE FREELY GIVEN TO BE LOVE! If God had made us so that we had no choice, we would have “loved” Him, but it would have been a counterfeit love. He didn’t, because He so love us… He soooo loves YOU that He wanted it to be your choice! Isn’t that amazing??? Almighty God – the Creator of the Universe – longs for a personal LOVE relationship with us so much that He has gifted us with the opportunity to reject Him! He has gifted us with a choice.

So… my heart breaks today because I know there are many who are not choosing to accept that love and to love Him in return. I have recently lost someone dear to me in death who did not believe. I can only pray that in those final moments, he had a conversation with my God and made the choice to accept the Gift that was offered.

My heart aches today as I think of all those who don’t know the agape love that holds them in the midst of a time that is so totally incomprehensible, so unbearable… a love that will not, cannot let them go.

My heart aches for the One who offers that love and who feels the rejection from so many… and who does not have the same comfort that He provides to us. How HIS heart must ache and break for those who reject Him and are forever lost… I can only imagine His scarred hands stretching across a void, reaching for His beloved children who are falling forever out of His grasp.

Why, you ask? Because while He is a God who unconditionally loves us, He is also a HOLY God who demands perfection – and He made a way to meet those demands through Jesus Christ. By accepting that gift, we meet His demand for perfection and holiness in Jesus… and avoid the judgment. So, you who are reading this… what will you do with this knowledge? Will you pray and seek His love in your life? Will you make Him LORD? Oh, I hope so.

If you have not… or will not… know this: He loves you still. I love you still. And I pray that somehow, some way, His love will reach you.

In His GRIP,



October 2, 2009

Where DOES the Time Go?

Well, I admit to being in a state of information overload. I have had a zillion things to do – or at least it seems that way – and I have been struggling with tyranny of the urgent of late. (If you’ve not read that book, you ought to – it’s got some gems to ponder, let me tell you!)

Anyway, this morning I heard something on the radio that gave me pause… about the “old days” – things just seemed to take a little longer. And that made me wonder: If we live in an age where everything seems so instantaneous – fast food, instant messaging, microwaves, etc. – then why is it that we seem to have less time? What happened to long walks and long talks “just because.”

As I considered this, I happened to think that all of the fast pace really hasn’t helped us that much. Consider the heart attacks, the stress levels, the information overload… what are we in such an all-fired hurry for anyway?!

I’ve neglected doing many of the things lately that have to do with technology and social media. I’ve not kept up with all of my email (at least the ones that are not personal), twitter, facebook, myspace, etc. I have let them go by the wayside. And yes – I’ve even let this blog go. But the reason I’ve done that is because I’m trying to juggle so many of the “quick” items that seem to fill my time! Oh, don’t get me wrong – it’s not that I don’t enjoy writing this blog… or communicating with some of you who have commented on this site. (I appreciate your comments by the way). I DO enjoy writing. But I spend my days working a full-time job, running errands, trying to start my own biz at home and building relationships. Therein lies the problem, methinks. Those things are all important and time-consuming… building relationships is probably the most important one for me of all.
I read this quote by John Burroughs yesterday: “I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see.” Boy, can I relate! And all those so-called “urgent” items can eat up my time so quickly.

So, let me ask you – how do YOU make the choices in your day? Do you make wise ones as you seek to go through the day and accomplish everything on your “to do” list? What’s most important to you? For me, I think that my personal relationships are far more important to me than anything else but… so many “urgent” items eat my time. We all have the same hours in the day. Certainly, time management is one key factor in keeping our sanity midst the fast-paced demands of this century, but I think there’s a little more to it.

As I think and pray on this issue, I think that I have to keep my priorities in focus. And let some of those seemingly “urgent” items go by the wayside.

Ephesians 5:15 tells me to be careful how I walk – not as someone who is unwise, but someone who is wise. That is, living with a sense of meaning and purpose. And Colossians 4:5 tells me to “Walk in wisdom toward them who are without, redeeming the time.” My understanding of that is that I need to treat those outside the faith with wisdom… making good use of my time with them. For me, that means building relationships because for many, I have to earn the “right” to share my faith. Hmmm… thoughts to ponder.

As we consider the day and the many demands on our time, perhaps the best questions to ask might be: “Is this activity something of meaning? Does it bring me closer to living my purpose for God?” If it is, then it’s something worth doing, something that is “redeeming the time.” But if not, maybe it’s better left undone. Just a thought, dear ones.

I’m praying for you as you read this… may you draw one step closer to whatever God is leading you to do as a result of reading my heart’s ponderings.

Love & blessings,

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